Dear America, I'm Just A Black Child

Dear America,

            I’m just a child. I’m just a back child. I’m just a black child with no identity; I was given a name by my parents that have no meaning.  

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      I’m just a black child living in a community where leadership no longer exists.  My dad abandoned me, ran to the streets, left me for dead, I don't know if he's dead or if he's in custody?

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      My mother left me home starving, chasing after another man whom she thought was a better man than my father. Child support spent upgrading her physical, to be intimate with his mental; he cheated on her, got another woman pregnant and said it was accidental.  

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

           He's back at home; he's doing her wrong, as if I'm invisible. He takes her money, beats her up and she's still in love with this criminal. She cooks him food, massages his mind, all I get is the $1 menu and Ramen Noodles all the time.

"I don't deserve to be shot down"

      Never a hug, never a kiss, I get beat with sticks and get slapped across the lips. I’m always sick, no remedies to do the trick, its been two years since my last doctor visit.

“I don’t’ deserve to be shot down”

      Time and money that should have been spent on me, was wasted on irrelevant things, now I’m walking in this cold work with no shoes on my feed.  Winter no heat, Christmas no tree, Santa Claus forgot all about me Christmas morning.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      Mama went to the club she skipped the line she sniffed the line, woke up the next morning in a hotel bed next to 3 guys who got inside her panty line.  She didn't get paid, now she got aids, 3 years later she died from aids, no funeral arrangements had been made.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      Even though there’s light, I'm trapped in darkness, I’m lonely, I’m lost, where do I go, where do I start. No money, no food, I get picked on in school, the teachers don’t care, they just smile and stare.  Issues with school work, no time to solve it, when fortunate kids raise their hands, they run in a hurry to solve it.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

One step out the door, 100 feet to the corner, a mile around the block, there he is holding the glock. Lost in my community. What we missing is unity, police supply the drugs, and drug dealers serve the community.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      I called upon the creator to blossom this seed from the dark garden, with patience he shined the light upon me and I grew into a beautiful flower. I produced useful seeds, got rid of some useless weeds, Please don’t gun me down, when I wear my hoodie to block the cool breeze.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      4 years in a University, I got that degree, did a year for my masters 2 more for my Ph.D.100 grand in the hole, who's gonna help me, went in for the interview, they didn’t hire me.  

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      I thought it was love, but it was lust, gave her my all I thought I could trust.  Her mom was gone left with her dad all alone and all she felt was his thrust.

“I don’t deserve to be shot down”

      Hers Years of built anger release upon me, she wasn’t prepared to love me, she skipped town messed around gave birth to two kids by two different men that made love to her and resembled her father.

      My mama is gone, my heart is alone America where do I find the love?

- Jameel Davis



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